More precious than gold

•November 20, 2011 • Leave a Comment

Today I had the honor of getting to see three very special kids.  They are the children of my ex-fiance and they mean the world to me. After being given the run around by their father about me seeing them for what is probably the last time, I never gave up and saw them today. The oldest daughter, Lea, gave me a letter that is the most meaningful thing I now own.

I want to share it here: a letter from my heart aka Lea (12yo)

Dear Alicia,

I always will try to remember you and keep you in my heart always.  I hope you will always do the same.

I always cry before I even get up in the morning because I know that it’s going to be another day that I have to live with the fact that dad made the lousiest mistake of our life, breaking up with you.

You were also really nice and I hope that we get to at least Skype, just you and me, as much as we can cuz that would just make me feel good and happy knowing that you still love me and care about me.

So all I want to say is thanks for all the great things you have done in my life.

With great thanks and love,

PS I LOVE YOU (and I hope you give me Duke)

I leave a big part of my heart here in Texas and most of it is with Lea, Ana, and Brian.  I hope they know I do still love and care about them and would still do anything in my power to make them happy.


30 Days of Gratitude: Day 20

•November 20, 2011 • Leave a Comment

A feeling of numbness.  Sometimes our bodies and minds have so much going on they shut down for a little while. I think if it didn’t do this we would all lose our collective shit. Sometimes numb is good.

And a good time was had by all.

•November 19, 2011 • Leave a Comment

Tonight was my going away dinner.  There were 10 of us and it was wonderful.  Lots of laughs and stories.  I sat back once or twice to mentally record what was going on and just smiled. My boss presented me with a plaque for 5 years with the city which meant a lot to me.  That plaque represents some of the best times and hardest jobs I have ever had.  It also proves to  me I can do it.  I can stick out a lot of crap and make it out alive.  Those 5 years there have not all been sunshine and unicorns.  Most of them were like being in a snake pit, but it doesn’t matter, I got through it and would do it all again. Thank you guys.  You all mean so much to me.

30 Days of Gratitude: Day 19

•November 19, 2011 • Leave a Comment

Silence.  There was a time not to long ago that silence was my enemy.  It made me pay attention to things I was trying to avoid.  Now, I enjoy it.  All I can hear is my cat purring in my lap and I am good.

Happy/ Funny Memories – Texas Edition

•November 18, 2011 • Leave a Comment
These are some of the things I will look back on when I am gone to make me smile.  
I love Texas and enjoyed being here.  
If I missed any, please feel free to leave a comment and add to the list.  
That would be wonderful.
  •  BACAAAAWWWWWKKKK (inside joke – my blog I do what I want 😉 )
  •  General silliness w/ Nate – Stewart from MADtv “Look what I can do!” etc…
  •  Random, out of nowhere anything – co-worker, who is usually quiet, starts singing Lady GaGa – Michael!
  •  OH. MY. GAWD. BECKY. – Maggie, you know you laughed 🙂
  •  My awesome work family – from the rivalry with KMac (Bears fan, almost kicking me out of the patrol car my first day) to riding out with Anita to help return stolen property to a couple from WI after I took the 911 call.
  •  Running around downtown so a friend could touch the fertility statues at Ripley’s and they were closed.
  •  Getting my first Commendation at work from one of THE toughest officers there is in our department.  He is my favorite one to this day.
  • My record-length first date – lasted from noon to 5 am 🙂 all totally innocent and still one of the better dates I have ever been on, Thanks Glenn.
  • Last minute road trips to Buc-ees

30 Days of Gratitude: Day 18

•November 18, 2011 • Leave a Comment

Today I am grateful for things being as they are.  I know that may sound odd, but think about it.  It could be a lot worse.  I could be without a job, without a home, and not knowing where my next meal is coming from. Instead I have a job (for now and will find one again soon), I have a place to live, and I know I am going to be ok.  Life is pretty good to me, all things considered.

30 Days of Gratitude: Day 17

•November 17, 2011 • Leave a Comment

Today I am grateful for the internet. Yep, I said it.  Although I remember life before it, I don’t want to go back.  If it was not for the internet I would not be going to school, have contact with as many people as I do, or even waste time so effectively 🙂 .